My sincere apologies for the amount of time that has passed since my last post. I had an interesting (from a scientific point of view, not personal) experience with the ketamine and was floundering for a while. About six weeks ago, I took my regularly scheduled dose and it plunged me into a very deep depression. It abated in 24 hours, and just to be sure it was the ketamine, I took my next scheduled dose 3 days later and the same thing happened. I stopped the ketamine and went back on my old SSRI, but the side effects were amplified to such an extent that it was unbearable and after two weeks, I went off meds altogether.
I theorized that I had over-saturated my brain with ketamine, which led to it having the opposite effect as well as making the addition of any other meds intolerable. I did some more research and found out that when used as a long- term treatment, doses are supposed to be gradually spaced out, from every 3 days, to every 5 days, to once a week, to once every two weeks, to once a month, and eventually once every two months. This seemed to confirm my theory that I had overdone the ketamine since I had been taking it every 3 days for 4 months straight.
I managed to maintain a depression-free state for four weeks, and last week I started taking the ketamine again after I sank back into my old depression. The first dose lifted me right back up as it had done when I first started it. I am now maintaining at 5 day intervals and after I am sure I am stabilized, I will begin to gradually space them out as per what my research dictates.
It’s been a crazy ride, and absolutely terrifying when I thought ketamine was no longer an option and I was destined to revert to a life of depression after receiving such a miraculous reprieve. The fact that I’m having to figure all this out on my own has made it even more difficult, but I seem to have found a balance again. I sincerely hope the lessons I am learning as a ketamine guinea pig can help others on ketamine treatment avoid some of the pitfalls I have encountered.
Here’s to a standard ketamine treatment protocol!